laughing pretty hard rn i somehow managed to saw the shit outta my ankle while doing laundry??
today my ex threw a book at me and fractured one of my ribs during The Hunt but hey at least the bruises on my arms are fading
man y’know whats real fuckin weird though? when people try to convince you to not kill yourself by using the “think of all the people who will miss u” thing. like really i dont care???? thats the stupidest thing ive ever heard i dont give a shit about what other people will think if im gonna be alive i want to be happy, not just making others happy. i dont want to have to live for anyone but me
another thing weird about knowing when you’re gonna die: today at lunch a kid i hate came up from behind me and hugged me (still dunno why he did that i guess to see if id punch him) and instead of being repulsed by him touching me i wanted desperately to tell him to come back when he let go jesus christ im disgusting
man knowing when youre gonna die is so surreal like youll start to care about or want a thing and then suddenly realize there’s literally no point to care about or want anything because youre gonna die soon anyway like